Thanks Jenia. I'm still very confused since I'm reading so many different articles. First issue - I don't want 'wordpress' in my domain name. I want it to be teachingtea.com and that's how all this started.
2nd: I'd like to transfer to wp.org but I bought a bundle with wp.com. If I transfer I have to pay for the site redirect and also lose the $ spent on the bundle, as well as my premium upgrade so that means I'd have to buy another premium upgrade with someone else. Am I correct on all of this?
Thanks for restoring the site. I just wanted to make the site private until I finish it up and so I went to settings and I think that's how I mistakenly made it disappear. Thanks again